Shortly after I gave birth, our doctor told us that Alice had jaundice. Nothing too serious but to lower her bilirubin level she needed to drink a lot of milk...milk that I was not yet producing.
This is when nurse V (who shall remain anonymous, ah!) came to my life. She arrived in our room and told me in a very military way that she wanted to see how I was stimulating (aka "fake breastfeeding" Alice) my breasts to eventually produce milk. I quickly realized that I would have a love-hate relationship with her.
Nurse V took care of us like no other nurse during our four days stay at the hospital. When Alice became too somnolent to eat (jaundice side effect), nurse V would feed her formula with a little cup or a plastic syringe. She also walked with Alice on her shoulder numerous time in an attempt to burp her* while visiting other mothers.
Nurse V also gave me many panic attacks. As soon as her shift started, I'm telling you, my pressure was increasing drastically!!! Every three hours, she would stare at me while I was "fake breastfeeding" Alice (30 freakin minutes of "fake breastfeeding"). After, we would give Alice formula.
One night, nurse V came with the big gun : the hospital breast pump! It honestly looked like a torture device used during World War II!!! I felt incredibly miserable, looking at my expending nipple, while no milk was finding its way to the little plastic bottle.
Luckily for me (and for most women), I started to produce milk (and lots of it) on the 4th day and so far breastfeeding is going super well. Thank you nurse V!
However, last night, I used for the first time my manual breast pump and things didn't go as planned. The sight of my expending nipple sent me back to the state of panic that I had at the hospital. I felt miserable again.
So don't make fun (like I did) of the breast pump instruction manual when it tells you to relax, take a few deep breaths and think of your baby!!! I tried again this morning and I now have a bottle full of milk in the fridge...since I'm going out tonight for the first time without Alice!!!
*Alice doesn't burp easily and according to nurse V a meal concluded without a burp is a big (BIG) no-no!!!
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lina: Don't worry (!), if we go reusable we will buy applecheeks diapers. The reviews are very good and it is cool that they are made in Montreal.
one claire day: Let me know your conclusion...so difficult to decide!
kim u: I don't think that our daycare will go for reusable. It is strange but diaper service is not very popular in Montreal. I will try to find more info about it!
mjb: I wanted to do like you (cloth during the day and disposable at night) but it tuned out to be very $$$. I still have to think about it!
bec hem: This is one problem! I can't line-dry diapers since it is against our condo laws. Totally, some reusable diapers are super cute!
little gray pixel: It must be a challenge to have kids without a washer and a dryer. I totally understand that you didn't go for reusable!
daniela: I also wanted to go for applecheeks. So cool that you made home made linings. I will take a look at the tutorial. Thank you so much for the info.
renae @ theredwren: I totally understand..well, not that we have water shortage in Canada. If you decide to go for reusable, please, let me know!
celia: Newborn diapers are much more expensive than stage 1 diapers. Think of all the money that you saved ; Oh, and Lucia is sssooooo adorable!
a loopy life: Until this week, every time that we tried size 1, we had pee and poo accidents. Not nice!!!
julia: Thank you so much Julia for your comment. I want to write a post about the feeling of guilt that so many mothers have. I love everything that you said. Again, thank you! xox